I know it has been a while since I have posted anything on my blog. I honestly just forgot about trying to post every month and I just felt that I didn’t have anything important to talk about. One of my best friend “A” always seems to have something to say. Every morning she has coffee thoughts and has a statement or has a opinion about something that is going on in this world. But for me I always have lots of thoughts going on in my head but most of them I don’t feel I should share and when I do share it then I wish there I could go back and delete it or erase it.
So….. Here you go…. Why is it so hard to accept who we are.. Why is it so hard to love the body we are in.. I for one is one of the worst critics that you can find about my self. I know that I am very hard on my self and I never seem to love anything about me (besides my eyes, I have always loved my eyes) But for me I want more then just my eyes.. I want my smile, my boobs, my thighs, my stomach.,….. The list is endless of things that I would love to love about my body, and for those skinny girls out there that I so wish I could look like, they too have body issues and things about there body that they don’t like too. Its not just about how big or how small you all. WE ALL HAVE BODY IMAGE ISSUES..
People say that it has to do with the media and what they show is beautiful but I don’t really think that is all true.. I think people have an idea of what they love. My husband for one is a man who loves bigger girls. Yes just like any man he thinks that a skinnier girl lets say Angelina Jolie is beautiful but he says he wouldn’t want to have sex with her as it would be like having sex with a hard piece of wood. There is nothing to her and he said that he would be worried that he would break her as he is a bigger guy. So then why? Why if you have some men that love bigger girls and some love smaller girls why is it that so many woman have body issues and do guys have body issues too? Do guys think about there body and there weight as a female does? Is it because they guys we find attractive doesn’t find us attractive? or that the men that find us attractive we aren’t that hot for?.. or is it really the media and TV and what they portray as sexy. Do we want all the men in the world to find us so attractive that we are willing to put are bodies through so much crap just to feel good about our self.
SO WHAT DO YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE? Are you a fluffy lover? a skinny lover? a muscler person? tall, short, bald, hair? all of these options are there? and does it go beyond looks.. Do you first look at someone and then they get better or worse the more you know them or if you find out they have money or no money does that change how attractive you find them?
I for one have a handsome man who the first time I saw him come out of a shower made my heart skip a beat and over the past 11 years though weight gain and weight loss, and more grey hair that I could ever count – I find him more attractive then I have ever have ( especially when he is all shaved and showered and smell oh so good ) When he takes me in his big arms and uses his muscles to pick me up ) to me he is more then just looks – he is the whole package, and for me that’s what I like. I want the whole package. I didn’t want a guy just on looks alone – I wanted a guy that had it all. Looks, brains, compassion, and a little muscle.
What kind of person do you have? what is there best qualities?
If you don’t have someone – then what are you looking for in that everlasting love?
Do you ever wonder about Life? I mean not the meaning of life but why are some people one way and why are some another way. Don’t get me wrong I get it.. If we where all the same then we would be robots. But lets talk about life and people..
So for me I have a mouth and a lot of times my mouth gets me in trouble.. Its not that I cuss or anything like that but I just don’t know when to shut up sometimes. I repeat what others have told me when I think its funny just to find out that someone thought it was mean and then they blame me for it.. and yes I did say it but I repeated it and it didn’t even come from my brain and when I said it I even quoted the person who I heard it from. But that’s not what people hear.. They hear me saying it……… Not the quote or anything that went along with the conversation just the one little part they chose to hear coming out of my mouth. Or they only ease drop on a part of the conversation and the little bite that they heard they now run with it… They now have a part of a conversation that sounded like I was mean but in reality if they heard the whole conversation then they would have found out I was NOT being mean I was truly being nice. Then that person tells the person it was about what little they heard or what they wanted to hear and made there feelings get hurt.. Which was NEVER my intention to hurt anyone’s feelings.. I am FAR from perfect but I try my hardest to I never purposely sets out to hurt someone else. I have had enough hurt in my life that I would not EVER want that for someone else NO MATTER WHAT. But my question is WHY – Even if you heard me say something mean about someone why spread it or tell that person.. If I came to you and told you what mean things others say about you I’m sorry but your feelings would get hurt to.. But once again I”M not like that.. People need time to vent and just because you are frustrated with them today doesn’t mean that’s how you feel. But that also doesn’t give anyone permission to just go blab there mouth and tell other people what was said about them. Keep it to YOUR SELF… Because one day it will come bite you in the ASS and its gonna hurt.. I know my feelings got hurt and now I’m down 2 friends because of it… My mouth is closed….
For those who follow me, read my Facebook, Instagram and any other online media things. You all know that I am always trying new fad diets or weight loss techniques.. I do good for quite some time then… Back to the drawing board with no luck.. I am how ever convinced that I can loose weight and do this with out any surgeries. I have tried Weight watcher, Adkins, Advocare, ACGC, and Various other Low fat, low carb, Low this , low that fad diets…
So now I’m gonna try Trim Healthy Mama (THM) – I have done alot of research and reading what others have to say about it so I hope that this is something that will work for us.. John ( my dear sweet husband) has stood by me through it all and has been there supporting me and even doing some of them with me.. So tonight was the night I was going to tell him about it.. And once again he stood there and again say “what ever you want honey, I will try anything with you if it makes you happy”. What a great husband he is.. So I ordered my books and now the wait for the books to come to read them…………..
More info to come once the books come and I get a chance to read the whole book……
Update on my weight loss – I am now at 275lbs Whoop whoop
Hey Yall, For those who follow me – I have lots of stuff that I am part of but what most don’t know is that I do hair. I love doing hair, I have done hair since I was 17 and did hair for 13 year straight before going to nursing school. So now I do hair out of my house. I am to the point that I would love to advertise to my friends that I can do there hair out of my house (AKA – my garage ) . So with that said – I have decided to do a contest.. The winner of this contest will get a free Partial Highlights or a all over color ( shoulder length and shorter is free – additional price for extra long hair)
Only 2 entries per person
Please comment below what you would like to name it.
I would love to have both or all of the loves of my life added to the name ( so nursing with fire with ems with hair and motorcycle)
the funnier the better..
If you have a idea on graphics for a business I would love to see it or hear from you too..
The more unique the better – I would love to have a unique name, one that hasn’t been done 50 thousand times.
My life today has been one Silhouette project after another.. I have a Silhouette Cameo and I love everything about it, there is so much things you can do with it. Today I made a sign for my kitchen, one for my front porch and one for my living room. I did a lot of looking into the Silhouette before I bought one as there was 2 options, for those who don’t know the big named ones out there are Silhouette or Cricket. There was several things about the Silhouette that I liked. For instance I could take any image and make it a cut file, which I liked as I had a specific idea of a image I wanted to make for a pallet project I wanted to do. Which I couldn’t do with a Cricket – so I bought a Silhouette.. I wanted to find one that had the most extras for the least amount of money but also a trusted site. I honestly couldn’t tell you where I ordered it from.
So back to the projects of the day… I am very patient when it comes to finding the right one I want to do.. There are so many out there I have to wait tell one jumps out and says ” THIS ONE YOU IDIOT!!!!”
I got the tray from Walmart for $4.00 and came home and stained the wood with my good old favorite Walnut.. Then I used a cut file I got and stenciled on with Antique acrylic paint.. I am not a huge fan of the look of Vinyl – I use it don’t get me wrong but there is a time and a place for shinny vinyl and this project is just not one of them.
Then there was this monster of a sign.. About a month ago I wanted to paint a sunflower so I watched a couple videos and this is what I got. I wasn’t sure at the time what I wanted to put on it – My thought was something to do with spring and then today the WELCOME jumped out and said “idiot put this on the sign” So with some research this is what I got.. It is now sitting on my front porch..
AND THEN THERE WAS MY FAVORITE OF THE DAY!
It was very time consuming – I got the mirror at a garage sale last year for I think a dollar and its been sitting in my garage for some time now – trying different ideas on what to do with it. So as I was searching my cut files on the Silhouette program on my computer I ran across a dandelion. I love dandelions and I was just telling my family as we where putting weed killer on the ground that I think they are more then just a weed that they are a bunch of little wishes.. My husband said “yeah annoying wishes that spread like crazy..” so when I found this cut file I knew that this is the one for me and I had just the perfect spot for it..
I have done a lot of different little signs and you can see all of them at L&L Designs but I would have to say that this is my all time favorite. Do you have a favorite quote or sign that you would like to share?
Well like I said I would update you all on the food that we tried on Christmas eve… So here is the low down….. The ham and swiss rolls where amazing, I loved them my husband on the other hand not so much.
The meatballs where awesome – I ended up making 2 different kinds. 1 was the bbq meatballs it was just okay.. The 2nd one was the chili sauce and grape jelly… I was AMAZING…
The bacon wrapped little smokes where awesome too..
The mozzarella and tomato with fresh basil – was a hit with me but not so much with anyone else.. Thats okay.. More for me.. =)
This is the only Christmas crack that I tried to make.. Christmas Crack I did it exactly how it said and for some reason mine came out very sticky.. Oh well it was still yummy…
These are little shortbread cookies called Jingle Bites. Super easy and yummy.. And great for kids to make.. This is my daughter holding her plate of Jingle Bites that she made.. This is where I got the recipe for the Jingle Bites
This is what the ham and cheese pinwheels turned out, before I cooked them.. I was so exited to eat them that I forgot to take a picture of them.. Yummy..
2016 has started off pretty well.. Tonight I am celebrating my sons 10th birthday – He has 4 friends spending the night and right now they are having a Nerf gun fight in the basement. I hung plastic table clothes up from the ceiling that way they had hiding spots and we put a extra table down stairs so they have more to hide under and around. So far it seems like a hit.
Boys will be boys – Having fun shooting each other..
Hiding behind the curtain trying not to be shot by the hundreds of bullets flying in the air..
I went to bed last night with the thought that I would sleep in and wake up refreshed.. Well of course just like normal my body had other options. 5 am and I am laying in bed wide awake thinking about the food that I need to start making. So I thought today would be a great day to share what I am going to once again attempt at making. So today I will be making ham pinwheels that are baked and the covered in some kind of mustered honey sauce with poppi seed.. then I will make a couple different kinds of meatballs. One is a chili sauce and grape jelly.. I have never made that so I thought it would be a good recipe to try. Then little smokes wrapped in bacon and last but never least some teriyaki wings.
When it comes to food my life has been about trying new recipes I find on Pinterest most fail and I should really right a post about all the Pinterest fails I have had. I might make some of you laugh.
Mozzarella, Tomato & Basil Salad – This is my version of it. I would have to say it looks very very yummy, but who am I to judge this is my all time favorite thing to eat. I could just say it went bad and eat it now.. But I will be a good girl and not do that.
So here are some of the recipes that I will follow today. Hope you enjoy cooking.. and I hope that each and everyone of you have a wonderful Christmas and a blessed, fantastic New Year…. See you all in 2016.
I have been busy working away in the garage now that the weather is slowly cooling down and its not 150 degrees in the garage. With Christmas quickly approaching and my first ever craft fair. I have been searching and searching Pinterest to find that perfect project to start working on. I came across this blog about wood word blocks and I got a idea… Yeah that doesn’t look so hard I can totally do this.. So here is the link…
I think though well I could do a couple at a time , I cut all my pieces like the website said and did a couple different ones on my own.. Being creative with my cuts..
Since I decided to do a 3 different once I pulled out my favorite stain.. During this time I realized that I didn’t have so much stain left so I thought (“if I add water to paint it thins it out and I get a little more paint, not as dark but it still works, so I thought if add water to the stain then it would thin it out and I would get more stain- Right.. Wrong!!!!”)
What you don’t see is that awful oil spill looking stain that is now floating on top of that water because it did NOT mix… Oh what a mess did this make… So I thought I can’t let all this go to waste so I tried to use it..
It was so awful.. It was such a mess and since I couldn’t get it to mix the wood only stained where the stain touched. So half the wood got stained while to other half just got wet..
I worked and worked and worked to try and get my wood to stain. Finally after about 3 hrs of flipping wood I got just enough on the wood to be happy with it.. But it was such a waste of my day and my stain..
They are not as dark as what I was hopping for but at least I was able to get it done and not waste the little bit of stain that I had.. Next time I will go back to the normal way of staining and wipe them down.
Over all I learned some great valuable lessons.. Do not in anyway shape or form mix water and stain together thinking that it will thin out.. WRONG!!!! All it does is make a oil slick of stain… Now on to making my word blocks..
The Journey of weight loss is something that I think I will always be on. No matter how big or how small I am I will continue to work on my weight. Its the one thing I know I will always struggle with. God has given people such great talent to create and make great food that it makes it so hard to say no. But I have learned that it is possible. The only problem I have ran in to is when I do say No I think about it and I think about I think about what it could taste like or what the deliciousness is in my mouth and I do get a little sad or feel a little deprived but that only last a minute and then all of that is gone and I move on. Because for me I think about that is so many calories that are not going into my body.
I am as of today down 6lbs, I was down 10 lbs but I went on a mini vacation and took my kids to Great wolf Lodge and well ate some good pizza and tacos so I gained a couple pounds back. But for me that okay – because I know starting tomorrow I will get back on that horse and do it again and every time I have a day that I fall off I will do I again and again. Nothing is going to stop me from trying to loose the extra weight I carry and I will always fight for the body I want.
So today I will say no to large portions and high fat foods and TODAY I will fight for the “Holy Hell You Got Hot” moment…