This morning I stepped on the scale (don’t mind the half painted toes LOL darn pandemic) and started my new life journey. I can’t remember the day I wasn’t struggling with my weight. With my 40th birthday coming in November, I wanted to do something for my self to help me get healthy and after alot of research I finally decided to take a huge leap of faith and get a VGS (Vertical gastric sleeve) done. This is my weight the morning of day 3 of my pre op Diet. This morning was rough, I wasn’t very hungry but everything smelled so good while my co workers were eating there Bacon, Egg and cheese muffins, Breakfast burrito. But I will resist and continue to strive for what I want.
If anyone has been following me they know my huge issue with my weight. With the help of Pampered Chef learning how to cook different with tools that make it easier and with lots of research and trial and error I have learned to change how I look at food. I do LOVE food, I love everything about food. The way it taste, smells, looks, even then way it makes me feel. Food is like cocaine to me – HOWEVER food should not revolve around me or my life. This hands down has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to figure out and I still struggle every day with it. I have done so many fad diets that I just wanted a life style change. I started low carb – but no KETO low carb just cut out bread, pasta, Fried food anything that I could look at and say Yeah not the healthiest option, but I still ate fruit and veggies – NO MATTER WHAT KIND, as I felt this is healthy food (and it is don’t get me wrong). But then I plateaued and I was pissed 1 month turned into 2 months and so on, I went from Low carb to low fat then to extreme low calorie (NOT A GOOD CHOICE FOR ME), then back to low fat, Then I watched a video on KETOGENIC and decided to give it a shot. I started to use a Keto app called Carb Manager and getting lots of recipes from fellow bloggers. I figured this might help get over my 8th month plateau. I’m still frustrated but now I am making a changes. With my new Keto lifestyle and my new workout routine I hope that I will be able to get over this because I am NOT planning on gaining any ounce of the weight that I have lost back. NO SURGERY just Diet and exercise (YES I SAID THAT AWFUL WORD) But let’s be real you can’t expect to sit on your butt and lose weight for very long. Eventually you will plateau and you need to wake your body up.
So lets talk about that – The big E word – EXERCISE! I started off doing something I loved DANCE. I have always loved to dance and I found Zumba. 3 of us girls would get together and work out. It was so much fun then one dropped and then the other one and then there was just me… BORING – who wants to workout by themselves. I hated it. So I slowly stopped. Then summer hit and the pool opened and I was back doing something else I loved Swimming. I figured if I’m moving I’m burning calories ( which you are) but I wasn’t burning enough for the calories I was eating so I gain back almost 10lbs – I was devastated and frustrated in my self and my poor husband got the blunt of it. (it was not the best month of my married – but it was my fault). Then a friend asked if she could come work out – I was so happy and excited that a friend wanted to come join me. So that gave me motivation to start butt kicking again however she tried her hardest at Zumba but does not have the best coordination. So one day I said lets go for a run (walking really fast). I found that I loved it and I didn’t need someone there to keep me company. Mind you the company is oh so very nice but I could turn on my music and just walk. So off the 10lbs goes and I’m back to where I was.. STUCK. But now I found something that I love to do – NEVER in a million years would I think that I like to run ( WOGGLE – Walking Jogging) but I DO. I push my self to go do at least 2 miles everyday. I haven’t lost any more weight but that’s okay because at least I’m not gaining weight. I would love to see the scale 1 day under 200 and I know I will get there, It just might take me longer then I wanted.
What exercise do you love? Have you found one or many that you might love? Whats stopping you from just getting up off the couch and move? Do you have limitation? I want to hear from you!
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For those who follow me, read my Facebook, Instagram and any other online media things. You all know that I am always trying new fad diets or weight loss techniques.. I do good for quite some time then… Back to the drawing board with no luck.. I am how ever convinced that I can loose weight and do this with out any surgeries. I have tried Weight watcher, Adkins, Advocare, ACGC, and Various other Low fat, low carb, Low this , low that fad diets…
So now I’m gonna try Trim Healthy Mama (THM) – I have done alot of research and reading what others have to say about it so I hope that this is something that will work for us.. John ( my dear sweet husband) has stood by me through it all and has been there supporting me and even doing some of them with me.. So tonight was the night I was going to tell him about it.. And once again he stood there and again say “what ever you want honey, I will try anything with you if it makes you happy”. What a great husband he is.. So I ordered my books and now the wait for the books to come to read them…………..
More info to come once the books come and I get a chance to read the whole book……
Update on my weight loss – I am now at 275lbs Whoop whoop
The Journey of weight loss is something that I think I will always be on. No matter how big or how small I am I will continue to work on my weight. Its the one thing I know I will always struggle with. God has given people such great talent to create and make great food that it makes it so hard to say no. But I have learned that it is possible. The only problem I have ran in to is when I do say No I think about it and I think about I think about what it could taste like or what the deliciousness is in my mouth and I do get a little sad or feel a little deprived but that only last a minute and then all of that is gone and I move on. Because for me I think about that is so many calories that are not going into my body.
I am as of today down 6lbs, I was down 10 lbs but I went on a mini vacation and took my kids to Great wolf Lodge and well ate some good pizza and tacos so I gained a couple pounds back. But for me that okay – because I know starting tomorrow I will get back on that horse and do it again and every time I have a day that I fall off I will do I again and again. Nothing is going to stop me from trying to loose the extra weight I carry and I will always fight for the body I want.
So today I will say no to large portions and high fat foods and TODAY I will fight for the “Holy Hell You Got Hot” moment…
?????? Is will you join me in this moment??????
The Journey starts today – Well its started yesterday but I lost track of time yesterday and didn’t have time to write….So………
I have decided to start a life changing journey.. I am a plus size girl – for honestly all of my life. There has never been a time in my life that I could remember not being a big girl. I have yoyoed so much in my life that I am sick of it. I am sick of having a box of skinny jeans and then when I get to that point having a box of fat jeans.. I’m done with that. So today is the day I decide to change my life. I will not be the girl that can’t fit into anything or has to shop at the plus size area because the other sizes don’t fit.. But for me I’m not going to get surgery.. Have I thought about it.. Yes, would it be something that I would consider doing yes. But I am also a ER nurse so I see all the complications that one in from it. People that have had the surgery say that they didn’t take the easy way out and it was hard, but my opinion is it is the easy way out. Instead of your body naturally shrinking your stomach from not eating so much or eating healthier you chose to have your stomach stapled or cut or cinched like a rubber band. But I am in no place to judge someone and if thats what they need to get on the right track and to be a healthy then so be it.
So For Me Today I start my journey.. There is so many Diet options out there how can you pick or know which one to pick but for me I have done so many I wanted to pick one that was a hole life style change. Something that I know I can pick and stick too.. Each one has so many great benefits – 1. Low carb, its a fast weight loss option but its not the best on my body. I have pains in places that I have not ever had pains. But some other things like my gas issue goes away 2. Weight watchers – Low fat, is more of a life style change as it teaches you portion control due to the point system. I hate hate hate counting points but I love the I have no points left to eat anything else today. So each one has great advantages to it.
Another thing we should talk about is weighing, when do you weigh? Are you a first thing in the morning weigh-er or are you a right before bed weigh-er? and why if you weigh your self right before bed you end up weighing more? It makes no since to me.. It makes no since why but for some reason it does make since..
For me Pinterest has been my friend.. Honestly when has Pinterest not been there for anything I am researching and it always gives me so many great options and advice.. There is so many diet ideas and topics that no matter what you are looking for I can guarantee that you can find it on Pinterest.
This is NOT going to happen over night and I may not always do the right thing or to eat the right food but maybe just maybe one day I will look back and know that I did it.. I got to the weight that I would love to be..and that moment in my life will be one of the top 5 best days of our life. So in the meantime I will keep you all updated and when that day comes trust me I will have pictures to share….
So in looking for some new recipes to go with my new journey I have found some great quotes.. So I hope you find them helpful in your journey.
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What is the best advice that you can give to a plus size girl like me..
I am 5’5 and my BMI is 47.85 –
I know its awful, But that’s why I have decided to once again jump on the wagon and try again.